Thursday, February 18, 2010

Making It

That's exactly what I'm doing day by day and hour by hour. There's nothing else I can do. I apologize for not being better about keeping up with this blog, maybe I will become better, or maybe I will start a different one and allow this one to remain as is. Regardless, I am still here. In Oklahoma for the time being. I haven't made it out to Siloam for church near as much as I would have liked. I miss all the people out there, but part of me is still scared of the memories and emotions that will come up when I'm there.

I have come to deeply appreciate the many joyous memories I have of Stephanie, but there are times when the sense of loss is certainly overwhelming. There are also times when I feel as though nothing has happened. I often think of something Stephanie would enjoy hearing about, and have to remind myself I can't tell her about it.

A great friend sent me a very good book about dealing with loss. The author experienced his own tragic loss and is able to write with and about the real emotions, and the real way in which life moves on.

So I am here and I am making it. With support from everyone in my life, and ultimately with the support from God. I live each day because there is nothing better for me to do. "To live is Christ, to die is gain".

Grace and Peace,


Anonymous said...

I've been anxious to hear how you have been holding up. I can only imagine how hard it is for you right now and I hope you have better days ahead. Hang in there!!!

Laura said...

We're praying for you every day.
~The Dowlings

Diane said...

Hi Warner,

I heard tonight at small group Bible Study that you were at Sager this morning. Dale and I are so sorry we missed seeing you. You would have gotten a hug from me!!!
So glad to hear that you were there!!!
I can only imagine how hard it must be for you.

Our Bible Study group prayed for you tonight, and you're not forgotten. We wish we could take the pain away for you, but we know only the Lord can REALLY comfort you. AND HE WILL~!! I know He IS doing that!!!
Hope we see you the next time you have the chance to come back.

I'm going to send an e-mail out to our Prayer Partners telling them that you've posted a new message here on your blog. I know everyone will love reading it.

God IS going to take good care of you.

Thanking God that He brought you and Stephanie across our paths!!

In His love,
Diane (for Dale, too)

Dan said...

Warner -

It was great to see you yesterday at church - it is always good to see you. You continue to be in our thoughts and in our prayers.


The Frugal Muse said...

It was good to see you at Sager yesterday, even though I didn't get to say "Hi." Love and prayers to you from the Roebucks-


Anonymous said...

Oh Warner, how hard and heartbreaking this must be every day. I can only imagine how painful and lonely it must be. Continue to hold the Lord in your heart and near to you each minute; he has you in His hand, I am certain. Stephanie is watching too, of that I am certain as well.