05/18/2008 1800hours H-11

Well here it is just 11 hours prior to showing up for Stephanie's surgery, and oddly enough, we're doing okay. Like Stephanie said we're ready to be over with it and at least start recovering. I like the idea of finally taking action against this thing, no more doctor's appointments where we talk about options and risks and everything else, but finally they will actually remove the problem and begin killing any residuals. I know the recovery from surgery will be tough on us, and more so the radiation and recovery from those treatments, but I really do feel like that will be easier. The light will be visible at the end of this long dark tunnel at least.

Today was the first real indication that we are actually going through with this though. Paula took our dogs to stay with her while Steph is in the hospital. A few minutes later we went to get Starbucks down the road, and when we came back in I thought something was wrong since Ruekie didn't charge down the stairs at me.

I will keep everyone updated on here throughout the day tomorrow, all your thoughts and prayers through the day will be greatly appreciated, although I probably won't answer either of my phones tomorrow either.